Jack ~ 18 months
Four Score and 4 years ago I gave birth to a chubby little boy with jet black hair...... he was the ugliest little baby you have ever seen. ;) But, he was mine and I loved him. That fat ugly duckling has grown up to be very handsome, talented man indeed. Jack is an old soul who loves the Lord. He is one people gravitate towards. In May he will graduate with a BS in Criminal Justice and then is off to law school. I love and adore you my baby boy and am so proud of you. You are a sturdy rock in my life. Be the best you can be for Christ. May the Lord continue to bless you and protect you using your gifts to help his people.
my baby boy
Sage ~ Gong Jia Fang
Seven years ago.... I felt the brush of angels wings as a frightened ruddy cheeked 11 month old baby was placed in my arms. This was one of the happiest moments of my life and I still remember it vividly replaying it over and over in my mind as to keep it fresh. When she was handed to me I felt like I had just been given an extra gift I did not deserve. I had prayed for a little girl for many years and the Lord granted me what I asked of Him. ( 1 Samuel 1:27). Happy gotcha Day and Happy Birthday Sage... you are my dream come true.
Sage after two days with her mommy and daddy
Sage home for 2 months...
Sage and Pingnan mate Jenna then....
Sage and Jenna now ~ raised together in the orphanage and still red thread sisters
Good things come to those who wait on the Lord!
Little Sage has a hurting heart since the loss of her beloved cat ,Stripey. Stripey had renal failure and had to be put to sleep. Her first lesson in death to something close was a difficult one and she cried many tears as she cuddled up next to me in the bed all night long sobbing her heart out. So did I.... I let her know I was right there with her precious kitty 'till the end. I didn't think it would be good for her to watch. She has taken some comfort in her Velveteen rabbit Velveteen. Such a beautiful child she is.... pure inner beauty.
Willow ~ Liu Xiao Hua
A year has passed since a tiny sick 18 month old little girl was handed into my arms by one of the orphanage office workers. I didn't have my family with me to share this great joy, as I traveled alone. It was a quiet relinquishment as she became mine forever. Forever.... such a beautiful word. I was filled with indescribable wonder. How am I so deserving of such gifts?! I took my little treasure back to the hotel to look over. (those who have been there know what I mean) It is like unwrapping a fine treasure... gazing with love into the face of a new child. Yes, I delighted in counting each little piggy and brushing every fine hair, placing soft kisses upon her wee runny nosed face, and gazing into her eyes. Oh! Children are truly gifts for the Lord! Willow is such a carefree happy little sprite. She has such a whimsical spirit and enjoys taunting her sisters as well as making them laugh. I wish I could share her walk with you...no, her actual physical walk. She plods along with a bit of a stomp as she walks. And her run? Her little feet kick out as she runs. I think she puts everything she has into what she does... weather putting stickers on every kitten in a litter, pouring rice on her sister or saying "I luuu ew!" ( translation: I love you) she is an amazing child. To me, she is perfection.
Willow on Gotcha Day evening...
The next morning...
18 months old in the White Swan Play Room
Willow had her dental surgery two weeks ago. All went well and they were able to save her all her teeth. I sat in the hospital praying, asking the Lord to be with my precious gift and guide the hands of those trusted to her care. She is still in pain and we are praying she will begin to eat something substantial soon. Isn't it hard when your child is ill and you want to take the pain and sorrow away but can't? Oh how I wish I could carry it for her. She snuggled against me last night in bed as she always does to read and sing. When she quietly fell asleep I prayed over her beseeching the Lord to grant her the gift of healing and wake up to a painless morning. How I love my babies. Motherhood fills you with such an array of emotions ~ immense joy, fear, laughter, peace, anxiousness, unconditional boundless love, sleepless nights, an appreciation for rest, thoughtfulness, nesting, hope, grace, unbelievable forgiveness, wisdom, patience, weariness, but most of all love unlike any other mankind can ever experience.
As you can imagine, this is a busy (and blessed!) month for us which can put a strain on life. There are many things on my heart... some which are heavy. It is times like this I need to remind myself to seek the Lord first... he will provide us everything else. He will carry my burdens if I let him. (Matthew 11:28) I am waiting to let everyone know where we will be moving.... it is a surprise. ;)
Thank you for all your prayers, emails and comments. They all mean so much to me. If there is anything you need prayer for just leave it in your comment or email me as I would love to prayer for you as well. Be blessed!